“So here’s the thing…

Crazy! I was watching “House” last night (which is quickly becoming one of my favorite shows) and there was a sick nun in the hospital that they couldn’t seem to cure and one of the doctors who’d been to seminary school once went to her privately and reminded her of 1 Peter 1:7. She decided then to just let God’s will be…whatever may happen.
Dr House comes in later to talk to her… basically to let her know she’s being ridiculous to just “wait on God” because she should trust the doctors more etc… and she says to him, “when I was 15 I was on every birth control known to man and I still got pregnant. I blamed God. I hated him.” Then she tells this unbelieving doctor, “I finally realized…you can’t hate God and not believe in Him at the same time. Thank you doctor, but I’ll wait for my miracle.”

Now, why is that crazy? Because I just went to my sister-in-law’s site and she just quoted that very same passage from the bible. And what’s cool is that I’ve been struggling with some things lately… feeling lost, questioning some things I was positive God had told me. And when that nun on the show said those words, I started crying. So to read it AGAIN this morning just made me bow my head and say, “I hear you God. I won’t forget again.”

I guess what her words said to me, when taken to a lesser degree, is that you can’t be angry at God thinking he let you down or something and still not believe in His power at the same time… which for me means you’re angry BECAUSE you DO believe in His power, you just don’t think He’s using it “right” for your situation. It all comes down to trust. Trusting that He really knows what’s right even when I can’t see it.

In our ladies’ bible study that started last Tuesday, we’re discussing Eve and how she was lead astray. How God told her something fairly simple. “Don’t eat from that ONE tree”, and yet there she was standing too close to it, listening to “reason” and questioning what she knew God had told her. And isn’t that how it usually starts? We start to question whether or not God has really spoken the truth to us? As women in particular, we’re so easily led astray by our emotions. It’s probably satan’s favorite thing about us. We’ll get so worked up about something unill we’ve darn near talked ourselves out of something we know God’s told us to do or vice versa. I think that’s why it’s so important to have good counselors in our lives…whether it’s our husband’s logical reasoning, or a good christian friend’s advice (thank you, Ruth). And thank you, Deb, for being obedient in typing what you felt God had laid on your heart so that I could see it again and know that He is still here.